You would be so proud of him

Hey mom,

The rain finally stopped and it is safe to say that summer is here!  Keegan insisted on putting up some of Dad's bird houses and I have never heard such amazing birds sounds in our back yard.  Even as we walk up the front steps you can hear the birds in their little sanctuary out back.  Keegan told Ginny today that she had to put her bird house that she made at VBS in the front because it is intended for Swallow's and he doesn't want Swallow's killing his birds.  She argued with him but he said insisted that is what Nana told him so that is the way it will go in our yard.

Soccer is over now and we have begun to camp on the weekends.  I ended up selling the van last week.  It was hard and I contemplated over and over again of keeping it for ourselves but I think it would have just been for the thought of keeping something that you were so exited about rather than keeping it for our benefit.  A beautiful Mormon family bought it from us.  They were excited to know that we were also praying that the vehicle would sell.

Now ... I worry about the house.  Mona wants so bad to buy it but Dad is so worried about not being able to afford where he is.  I reassure him that he will be able to make it but you know Dad.  He wants to know he is secure and not a burden to anyone.

You would be so proud of him.  It has been a tough road, not only to see him walk down but to walk down that road along side him.  There are days where he sleeps well past 11:00 am and doesn't want to eat.  There are even days when he says he is going to see you.  On days like those I pray the same prayer that I prayed for you.  I pray that God will take him quickly and peacefully and that he will not have to suffer.  Good days like today hurt just as bad though, if not more.  When I stopped in for my usual lunch time visit I couldn't find him.  His door was unlocked and he was no where around.  I was just about to get into the elevator when there he was getting off.  "Oh, hey" he says.  "I was just doing my laundry."  He is doing is own laundry!  He talks of having coffee downstairs with other men and he is now going down for 3 meals a day.  Mom, he has even let me limit his barley soup intake without even putting up a fight.  :)  I bought him a tomato plant for his little house and he is now getting cherry tomatoes off of it.  The two of us remind each other to water it often.  He dusts around his pictures and his models.  He even looks forward to the cleaners coming on Wednesdays to clean his house.   I love that man! It just makes me so happy to see that he has accepted your loss and fights to move on.  He often talks of having nothing here but us kids and his grandkids.  He says how much he misses his "Honey."  When I think at how far we have come in just 6 months I can't help but smile.  God was sure looking after the two of you.  And now you and God are looking after the rest of us.

Love you mom,

Always and Forever